Thankfulness?

I am up at the crack of dawn, again; can't get back to sleep after an early morning bottle with the little one.  Actually, I was awake even before she was, thinking worrying about the Christmas list.  13 gifts to buy for family members, 4 neighbor gifts, and a long list of extended family members to remember.  How will I be able to afford all this???? 

You see, back in August, I quit my job as a music teacher.  The plan had been for me to continue to teach part-time after our 2nd baby was born.  We needed the money.  But, I quit anyways.  Prayerfully, and with wise counsel, we decided to take this blind leap.  We would tighten our belts even more, and I would try to pick up private lesson students.  Well, things have not gone according to plan. 

The readings the past few mornings in Jesus Is Calling by Sarah Young, have been on trusting God for outcomes and on thankfulness.  As I sit and read on Thanksgiving morning, I am not thankful.  I am stressed.  Then I read one of the verses listed at the bottom of the reading. 

Though the fig tree does not bud

and there are no grapes on the vines,

though the olive crop fails'and the fields produce no food, 

though there are no sheep in the pen

and no cattle in the stalls, 

yet will I rejoice in the Lord, 

I will be joyful in God my Savior.

Habakkuk 3: 17-18

How this verse describes our current situation!  According to Sarah Young, it is in being thankful for who God is, it is in rejoicing in my Savior that I will find joy, happiness, and peace,on my circumstances good or bad.   So, I must be thankful this Thanksgiving morning.  Thankful in my God who is my "refuge and strength, an ever present and well-proved help in trouble" Psalm 46:1 AMP